Fear of the dark

Tuuudeeeluuu! :D yellow zoombieNani is in da house!

I'm all by myself in the apartment right now. even Yanka is gone. it's dark outside and I'm watching "I am Legend", and I'm seriously shitting my pants XD I've seen it before though, me and my sister saw it on the cinema but it's still very scary S: .......SPOILERALERT....! Oh noo, poor dog, now he has to kill it, and he's so cute and all, why did he have to defend Will Smith, and get bitten by the zoombiedogs!! :( He's starting to change already.... OKAY, now he's aggressive :S fudge... Will Smith killed the dog :'( I know he had to, but it's still awful, it was his only companion and he and the dog were like bff's :'O fudging zoombiefudgers >:(

I made spaghetti bolognese earlier today :D *proud* I put mushrooms in it too :L it was delicious!
Tried to study physics today but I only solved half of ONE problem :C

I'm so excited, and I just can't hide it. I'm about to lose control and I think I like it.-
I AM GOING TO SEE IRON MAIDEN THIS SUMMER :D and many more at Rock Werchter, Belgium :D woop woooop! Fantastic Four (Nani-me, Tiny, Anna and Carro) are gonna conquer Europe summer 'XI !!

PEACE!

Back to the 90's

OMG I JUST MADE A NEW DISCOVERY :'O
I know I'm a bit after but seriously, I had no idea that Mark Wahlberg sang and had his own popgroup x'D LOLZ. It's almost good you know, only cause it's him ;D
And ma gosh! Did you know he had that BODY ? :L

He's like: Heeeii I'm such a pretty booii with my pouty lips and a gangsta chillin with ma potatoes ;D
(I have studied physics for 7 hours so yes, I'm allowed to be this freaky x'3 )
And below you have Mark Wahlberg today (from the movie The Fighter) and he's stil HOT.

MARKY MARK AND THE FUNKY BUNCH - good vibrations

with a little help from my friends

Last friday my sister and I went to Friskis&Svettis and did some workout and I looove their showers with the SAUNA! It felt really refreshing with a long hot sauna-time to compensate for the long cold winter :O

After that I went home to fetch my bag and then I was heading to Nyköping with Nathalie, I bought the tickets in December so I could go and visit her cause her birthday was that monday but then in January she moved to stockholm almost right next to me XD but it was fun to go on a trip anywaysss and I hadn't seen her mum and little sister in like forever :O I helped her to coulour her hair (: and I'm pretty satisfied with the result, it was hard because she wanted two different coulours, pink and green ^o^
That saturday we ate Thai with some of her friends, the food was delicious :L after that we went to a party at another friends house, and I managed pretty well actuelly, considering that I only knew Nathalie and I'm supernervous when meeting new peeps... They where pretty kool tho' and really nice, especially a girls bf, he was a bit TOO nice x'D and I felt really awkward because his girlfriend was there and everything so I was mostly trying to hide and hang out with his gf to show her I wasn't a threat in her house xD but he was like that to everyone ^^ and other than that he was really nice :) I think alcohol gives him GOS-besvär xD And the following day we went back up to Stockholm :)

Monday we celebrated Nathalies bday by going to the cinema :D we saw TANGLED in 3D :D it was SOOO gooood! :D And today I met Nathalie at the library and I studied physics for 4½ hours ;O and then later I went to the City and met Patrik & Carro :D we had beer and chips w/ dip :D it was yummieyummie in my tummy ;D Now I really need to get some sleep GOOD NiGHT SLEEP TIGHT DREAM OF BEDBUGS TONIGHT <3

Somliga går med trasiga skor

Ni hao!



No school for me today YEAAAY :D but I should use this time to study physic... BAH!
Instead of studying I went for a long one-hour-walk with Yanka C: that was nice, but the weather could've been better... Sometimes I don't know what's better, cold snowy winter or warmer snowmelting weather like today :/ I had to wash Yanka for like 20 minutes to get rid of all the grit and sand and dirt (yuck!) :[

Oh and btw, yesterday I met Nathalie at the station cause she'd left her bag in my house the other week and we didn't have time to meet earlier.. Well, even though we only spent 15 minutes together it was super nice :3 It's been a while since we could meet randomly like this, she moved away from Stockholm 10-12 years ago and she just moved back! And now she lives like 20 minutes away instead of 3 hours away!! C: WOOP WOOOOP <3

GOS !
(enjoy this wonderful song by the awesome Cornelis Vreeswijk)

Sir, Yes Sir!

Hola!

Today Sara and I went to Östermalmstorg-Stadion and visited our friend Mathilda who's currently in the Military doing the "Military Service", and she's in the "Mounted Regimen" (LOL. I have no idea what it's called in swedish let alone in english X'D but I think those words are close enough..?). She had like an "open evening/day" so friends and families could come and visit and see the stables with the horses and then there were some older persons in uniform talking about the history of the headquarters and stuff like that :) After we'd said "Hiii motchie moootch" to all the horses and like pissed our pants when they bit our jackets (xD) we snuck up to see where Mathilda and the other guys of her "pluton" lives, and it was like very... I don't know how to describe it... It was very much how I'd imagined it, strict square-ish pale and lots of small beds in one room... but somehow it felt really cozy. huh. weird.
Well, even though it sounds nightmarish to wake up so early and train so hard and be so disciplined I actually got motivated to do the military service XD which is actually bad because I do not have the time nor the right physique or psyche... >:'(

Later we went to Vapianos and ate pasta! :L nom nom! Mathilda and I had pasta with mushrooms and Sara had pasta with some tomatosauce, everything was super delicious even the bread :L They had gummibears in a bowl near the exit and Katta and Erika each took a handful before we left ^^

Now I'm wagering between watching telli or download a MMORPG... Hm, I really should study considering we're going to go through two new chapters in physic tomorrow :S But I don't want to :P sooo, back to deciding what to do ... I guess you'll hear from me tomorrow or later this week :]

XOXO
// Nani signing off.

(I know, it's not the most flattering pic but it's proof that I've touched bamboo and I'm honestly too tired to care ! :'3 )

part I - Somewhere I Belong

26 November 2o1o

It's 8.oo AM and I've already pressed the snooze-button too many times for my alarm to ring again. I can't avoid it anymore, I feel the thought pushing on my forehead like an everlasting headache, "tomorrow I'll be in Chile, I'll see my sister again for the first time in ten long years, Tata and abuelito won't be there like last time though..." I feel all the surpressed emotions begin to rise, I have to close my eyes hard and concentrate on the inside of my eyelids to fight back the nausea.

My feet meet the cold texture of the bathroom floor and it helps me clear my head. I let the water run loud and hard in the bathtub to drown my thoughts while I undress and shower. The warm waters absence leaves me standing on the floor cold with my hair dripping along my back, I wrap a towel around my hair and next myself.

When I walk in to the kitchen I'm back in my pyjamas and have successfully emptied my head of thoughts and emotions and put myself on automode. I eat my breakfast with my mum and my older sister who's so nervous she hasn't been able to eat or sleep for the last two weeks.

Then everything is a blurr, the next thing I know we're in the airport and have already checked in the bags and are saying goodbye to mum, dad and my little sister. I feel sorry for mum cause she's all emotional and I just can't feel anything, I had already shut down that part of me some hours ago. I try to put on a halfsad face but I can still feel my absent face so I hug her tight and hide my face in her hair. I tell her I'll miss her and that I will call as soon as we've arrived and all that stuff your supposed to say but atleast I can say it like I mean it, because I do mean it. I hug my dad and he puts a big kiss on my forehead and I tell him that he and my little sister will be flying in just to weeks from now and we'll see eachother then, he gives me that kind of smile that reaches all the way up to the eyes. I kiss my little sister good bye and tell her I love her and I'll see her soon to so she better enjoy having mum and dad to herself while she can.

I'm pushed deeper back in my seat and see how everything is angled upwards, the takeoff is successfull but I don't relax and let go of my sisters hand until I hear that special *ping* and see the light of the belt-image go out. "Wow we're really on our way now, this is real, this is actually happening..." the stewardess brings us the food and I choose the vegeterian plate and the food is okay but I have to shove it in my mouth fast because I can feel my facade crumbling, and if I can't repair it soon I'll never be able to eat.
It's dark outside and most of the people around me are already sleeping, I try to sit comfortable and put my legs up so I can sleep but there's to little room and the people walking down the small aisle keeps disturbing me.

Somewhere in the end of the bad movie playing I guess I had some sleep cause when I open my eyes it is already bright outside and the fluffy dress of clouds is surprisingly white. We eat our breakfast and I start putting on some makeup. We're flying over Brazil now, the little I see is green, and it's a refreshing contrast to Swedens white and Europes grey.
Suddenly we're flying over Chile and next Santiago and we begin to land slowly and safely.

-End of part I -

Se que soñara con tu regreso

OMFG :S Why, whyyy haven't I written here?! Omg blog you've missed so much!
I have to eat soon so I don't have time to write it all down now, but here comes a sneak peek ;D One-and-a-half-month trip to Chile + Starting preeUni?!
Besitos <3