Never Miss A Beat

(me, Anna, Tiny @Versailles, France)

HAY HAY :D !

I've missed you so much bloggy<33 I didn't even realize it until now, when I randomly saw you again... :'0

Can't believe that I haven't told you everything that has been going on in my life, regretting it deeply:/ well well..

This summer was fantastic! I went on a little backpacking trip through Europe, three whole weeks with the best gals evurr, Tina Anna and Carro and Jenn :D the trip started from stockholm-->copenhagen, I overslept and missed the train and Tina+Anna took the wrong train XD FAIL!

Well we all managed to get other trains to Denmark:) There we met up with Jenn and went

around town, it's sooo pretty! We found a computer and contacted a CouchSurfing host that could have us over the following day in Germany. Then we went to the 'Freetown' Christiania and experienced the hippie way of life!:) We didn't have anywhere to sleep and the trainstation was closed overnight so we started our night in an Irish pub and moved on to Burger King where we stayed until morning xD it was soooo cold!:S

Day1. On the morning we went to the station and slept on the floor/backpacks for an hour. then we took a train to Berlin (Germany) and went to our host's place :) made dinner with him, and then went out to be part in the techno-loving-nightlife! went home.

Day2. went around randomly and saw Berlin, saw one part of Berlin Wall (what a feeling to be there, to touch the very core of a terrible terrible era...), went home, dressed up, went out to meet Nightlife again:) tried to find an IndieRock.club that we had past earlier that day but failed, ended up in another Rock club, awesome:)

Day3. Next day, saw other part of Berlin wall, the painted part, oh what creativity! went 'home' and packed our backpacks, slept three hours, went to central station, took train to AMSTERFUCKINGDAM!:D WOOP WOOOP!

Arrived at Amsterdam, checked in at the Hostel that actually was a HoTel (?) xD nice place next to the Van Gogh museum and a HUGE green grass field:D Had a nice evening/night on the field, eating snacks and cutting Annas hair & playing cards at the same time x) Next day I and Tiny walked around whole amsterdam, seeing

Rembrandts house, Anne Franks, Heinken museum (from outside:/ ), and a lot of narrow streets and bridges and beautiful canals:) night out to Red Light District & Coffee Shop ehehe^^ a man tried to sell us a woman :S we said NO thank you and hurried on x'D went towards the Hotel, decided to take a beer so stayed at a nice Pub, then went home, or tried to find our way home in the middle of the night, it started to rain, a LOT, were soaking wet at the time we found our way back to the hotel.

Next day we conquered next city ... Bruxelles in Belgium. Checked in at the youth hostel.

went to the city to buy last minute stuff for the festival, got tired of walking in stores and I and Tiny went to be tourist and look at all the big important European buildings like European Parliament:) went back home. Repacked. Slept. Woke up, took looong shower. Went to buy groceries like waffles and liqour for the festival xD. Went to Leuven by train, took the bus to Werchter where Rock

Werchter lied waiting for us. Put up the tent. Festival started. Saw awesome bands. Linkin Park, Cold Play, Kings Of Leon, Iron Maiden among others (kasabian, kaiser chiefs, seasick steve, bruno mars, queens of the stone age(!), my chemical romance and many more!). Had a blast, four days in a row! Got up really early the fifth day packed, ran to bus,

went back to Bruxelles, took train to FRANCE.

Day1. Vive la France, NICE, Paris next! Checked in at the hotel, top floor, no elevator, 15kilo backpack, not so nice... waited for my turn to take shower. took shower. ate first real food at restaurant. bought breakfast for next day. Contacted couchsurfing host that could have us for the last four days of our visit in Paris..

Day 2. Next day, noticed some moscito-bites on arm. Ate breakfast at a nice park, went to wash our clothes at a Laundromat (self-service laundry), drunk man went around kind of naked while he washed his clothes xD saw Sacre Coeur and Notre Dame and Montmartre and Louvre (just outside). Sat by amusement park next to Louvre. Started raining, went home. Dressed up and went to nice pub with a cool retro&cute-looking popcorn-machine, choice of the night: Mojito. went home, way home was a bit scary and we got into some dark alleys before getting home lol.

Day 3, went to couchsurfing host, bought food for the following days.

Day 4, itching and rash too horrible to stand, went to doctor (lol), appearently I had an

allergic reaction to bedbugs, got recipe for cream and pills (yaay!). went to Versailles, met our host and his friend, ate Tiny's strawberrys and my cookies, and anna's cookies. went back home, changed, host B took us out to eat best chicken Kebab (nom nom) in Paris, and then we went on to next place to eat the best ice cream in Paris (NOM NOM NOM!!), finished the day at a cozy student club :)

Day 5. Went up Eiffel Tower (for the second time *brag brag brag*), got sore legs, went down Eiffel Tower, didn't remember it taking so long to get down, bored. Ate a nutella-banana-crepe, went to the park in front of Eiffel Tower, ate lemon-sugar-crepe (hehehe) :L home, host B cooked and baked for us!<33 went clubbing in Paris with host B, had a blast!<33 home at 5 AM.

(Carro, Me, Host B, Tiny, Anna @Host in Paris, France)

Day 6. Left Paris for Bruxelles again with Tiny. Ate a Panini. Went to Amsterdam to kill time with Tiny, took last train back to Bruxelles, slept on train (4-hour long ride:) according to plan. Arrived at Bruxelles again. Went and sat by some benches at in the station. Noticed that we were locked in the station. Meh. Talked to two other young persons on the bench infront of us, they had been at RW too, coincidence! And an illegal albanian were there too and started to tell his lifestory... xD our three neighbours found a waiting hall where others were and went there. Me and Tiny couldn't be bothered. Unfolded the sleepingbags, put them on the benches and slept, letting the inner hobo of us come out ;D took bus to airport, took delayed flight back to Gothenburg. Slept at Tiny's. Woke up 05:30 AM and took bus, then train, back to Stockholm.

(Tiny and Me @ Airplane, Somewhere over France)

bad spelling I know, but it's 2 AM and I tried to summon this up but it just went on and on and on xD need to edit this, correct misspellings and put in some pics. gonna do it some other day tho- Good Night honneyblog<333

Where is my mind?

So, sometimes I blame myself, sometimes I blame others. But mostly I think I blame myself. It's not impossible you know. It's not even hard. But I just can't do it, I just hate it, I'll fail. "If you can dream it, you can do it" I love that motto but it's hard to follow it ... And "think positive, be positive" and so on .... it's easier said than done! Well it isn't that hard maybe, if you just put some effort in it.. Maybe if I was better it wouldn't be like this, maybe it wouldn't have happened, everything would be just fine. ?

I'm sorry, my head is just a hole with a mashed boiled brain right now. I can't concentrate I can't think I can't feel... Well that's just how I deal with things, I become passive and shut down. It's like I have an "Off-switch" or something. . I feel that familiar sinking feeling in my stomach, and my friend Empty is taking place in my head.

I'm glad that I'll be with Amalia within a few hours, and then stuff I've erased, and later tonight I'm off to Carro and we'll eat tacos and I'll sleep at her place :D

Yday my lil' sis made "chokladbollar/kokosbollar/negerbollar" xD it was super yummie! :D And later I went to Carro, I slept there, but she had to work today so I went home to my dad's empty place this morning, and I'm watching Disney Channel, they're showing TINKER BELL ! :D

PEACE!

If I was your vampire

FINALLY!!
Vampire Diaries has started again! :D It kind of sucks that they've changed the day to friday instead of thursday :/ but hey, you can always see it on the tv6 webpage later :) Well it felt like I had waited more than just two months for Vampire Diaries to begin :O


BUT I'm really disapointed in SVT1 for lying to me and everyone else and postponing the comeback of True Blood, I have seriously waited a whole year now. I've forgotten everything and it's almost like I don't care anymore. Last year they said they would start airing True Blood again in Feb 2011, it felt like forever and now that Feb '11 is here, they change the date to "after the summer" .... fudge them!

how can I not follow True Blood ..?.. Alexander Skarsgård är så jävla snygg !

Bad Things - Jace Everett

Fear of the dark

Tuuudeeeluuu! :D yellow zoombieNani is in da house!

I'm all by myself in the apartment right now. even Yanka is gone. it's dark outside and I'm watching "I am Legend", and I'm seriously shitting my pants XD I've seen it before though, me and my sister saw it on the cinema but it's still very scary S: .......SPOILERALERT....! Oh noo, poor dog, now he has to kill it, and he's so cute and all, why did he have to defend Will Smith, and get bitten by the zoombiedogs!! :( He's starting to change already.... OKAY, now he's aggressive :S fudge... Will Smith killed the dog :'( I know he had to, but it's still awful, it was his only companion and he and the dog were like bff's :'O fudging zoombiefudgers >:(

I made spaghetti bolognese earlier today :D *proud* I put mushrooms in it too :L it was delicious!
Tried to study physics today but I only solved half of ONE problem :C

I'm so excited, and I just can't hide it. I'm about to lose control and I think I like it.-
I AM GOING TO SEE IRON MAIDEN THIS SUMMER :D and many more at Rock Werchter, Belgium :D woop woooop! Fantastic Four (Nani-me, Tiny, Anna and Carro) are gonna conquer Europe summer 'XI !!

PEACE!

Back to the 90's

OMG I JUST MADE A NEW DISCOVERY :'O
I know I'm a bit after but seriously, I had no idea that Mark Wahlberg sang and had his own popgroup x'D LOLZ. It's almost good you know, only cause it's him ;D
And ma gosh! Did you know he had that BODY ? :L

He's like: Heeeii I'm such a pretty booii with my pouty lips and a gangsta chillin with ma potatoes ;D
(I have studied physics for 7 hours so yes, I'm allowed to be this freaky x'3 )
And below you have Mark Wahlberg today (from the movie The Fighter) and he's stil HOT.

MARKY MARK AND THE FUNKY BUNCH - good vibrations

with a little help from my friends

Last friday my sister and I went to Friskis&Svettis and did some workout and I looove their showers with the SAUNA! It felt really refreshing with a long hot sauna-time to compensate for the long cold winter :O

After that I went home to fetch my bag and then I was heading to Nyköping with Nathalie, I bought the tickets in December so I could go and visit her cause her birthday was that monday but then in January she moved to stockholm almost right next to me XD but it was fun to go on a trip anywaysss and I hadn't seen her mum and little sister in like forever :O I helped her to coulour her hair (: and I'm pretty satisfied with the result, it was hard because she wanted two different coulours, pink and green ^o^
That saturday we ate Thai with some of her friends, the food was delicious :L after that we went to a party at another friends house, and I managed pretty well actuelly, considering that I only knew Nathalie and I'm supernervous when meeting new peeps... They where pretty kool tho' and really nice, especially a girls bf, he was a bit TOO nice x'D and I felt really awkward because his girlfriend was there and everything so I was mostly trying to hide and hang out with his gf to show her I wasn't a threat in her house xD but he was like that to everyone ^^ and other than that he was really nice :) I think alcohol gives him GOS-besvär xD And the following day we went back up to Stockholm :)

Monday we celebrated Nathalies bday by going to the cinema :D we saw TANGLED in 3D :D it was SOOO gooood! :D And today I met Nathalie at the library and I studied physics for 4½ hours ;O and then later I went to the City and met Patrik & Carro :D we had beer and chips w/ dip :D it was yummieyummie in my tummy ;D Now I really need to get some sleep GOOD NiGHT SLEEP TIGHT DREAM OF BEDBUGS TONIGHT <3

Somliga går med trasiga skor

Ni hao!



No school for me today YEAAAY :D but I should use this time to study physic... BAH!
Instead of studying I went for a long one-hour-walk with Yanka C: that was nice, but the weather could've been better... Sometimes I don't know what's better, cold snowy winter or warmer snowmelting weather like today :/ I had to wash Yanka for like 20 minutes to get rid of all the grit and sand and dirt (yuck!) :[

Oh and btw, yesterday I met Nathalie at the station cause she'd left her bag in my house the other week and we didn't have time to meet earlier.. Well, even though we only spent 15 minutes together it was super nice :3 It's been a while since we could meet randomly like this, she moved away from Stockholm 10-12 years ago and she just moved back! And now she lives like 20 minutes away instead of 3 hours away!! C: WOOP WOOOOP <3

GOS !
(enjoy this wonderful song by the awesome Cornelis Vreeswijk)

Sir, Yes Sir!

Hola!

Today Sara and I went to Östermalmstorg-Stadion and visited our friend Mathilda who's currently in the Military doing the "Military Service", and she's in the "Mounted Regimen" (LOL. I have no idea what it's called in swedish let alone in english X'D but I think those words are close enough..?). She had like an "open evening/day" so friends and families could come and visit and see the stables with the horses and then there were some older persons in uniform talking about the history of the headquarters and stuff like that :) After we'd said "Hiii motchie moootch" to all the horses and like pissed our pants when they bit our jackets (xD) we snuck up to see where Mathilda and the other guys of her "pluton" lives, and it was like very... I don't know how to describe it... It was very much how I'd imagined it, strict square-ish pale and lots of small beds in one room... but somehow it felt really cozy. huh. weird.
Well, even though it sounds nightmarish to wake up so early and train so hard and be so disciplined I actually got motivated to do the military service XD which is actually bad because I do not have the time nor the right physique or psyche... >:'(

Later we went to Vapianos and ate pasta! :L nom nom! Mathilda and I had pasta with mushrooms and Sara had pasta with some tomatosauce, everything was super delicious even the bread :L They had gummibears in a bowl near the exit and Katta and Erika each took a handful before we left ^^

Now I'm wagering between watching telli or download a MMORPG... Hm, I really should study considering we're going to go through two new chapters in physic tomorrow :S But I don't want to :P sooo, back to deciding what to do ... I guess you'll hear from me tomorrow or later this week :]

XOXO
// Nani signing off.

(I know, it's not the most flattering pic but it's proof that I've touched bamboo and I'm honestly too tired to care ! :'3 )

part I - Somewhere I Belong

26 November 2o1o

It's 8.oo AM and I've already pressed the snooze-button too many times for my alarm to ring again. I can't avoid it anymore, I feel the thought pushing on my forehead like an everlasting headache, "tomorrow I'll be in Chile, I'll see my sister again for the first time in ten long years, Tata and abuelito won't be there like last time though..." I feel all the surpressed emotions begin to rise, I have to close my eyes hard and concentrate on the inside of my eyelids to fight back the nausea.

My feet meet the cold texture of the bathroom floor and it helps me clear my head. I let the water run loud and hard in the bathtub to drown my thoughts while I undress and shower. The warm waters absence leaves me standing on the floor cold with my hair dripping along my back, I wrap a towel around my hair and next myself.

When I walk in to the kitchen I'm back in my pyjamas and have successfully emptied my head of thoughts and emotions and put myself on automode. I eat my breakfast with my mum and my older sister who's so nervous she hasn't been able to eat or sleep for the last two weeks.

Then everything is a blurr, the next thing I know we're in the airport and have already checked in the bags and are saying goodbye to mum, dad and my little sister. I feel sorry for mum cause she's all emotional and I just can't feel anything, I had already shut down that part of me some hours ago. I try to put on a halfsad face but I can still feel my absent face so I hug her tight and hide my face in her hair. I tell her I'll miss her and that I will call as soon as we've arrived and all that stuff your supposed to say but atleast I can say it like I mean it, because I do mean it. I hug my dad and he puts a big kiss on my forehead and I tell him that he and my little sister will be flying in just to weeks from now and we'll see eachother then, he gives me that kind of smile that reaches all the way up to the eyes. I kiss my little sister good bye and tell her I love her and I'll see her soon to so she better enjoy having mum and dad to herself while she can.

I'm pushed deeper back in my seat and see how everything is angled upwards, the takeoff is successfull but I don't relax and let go of my sisters hand until I hear that special *ping* and see the light of the belt-image go out. "Wow we're really on our way now, this is real, this is actually happening..." the stewardess brings us the food and I choose the vegeterian plate and the food is okay but I have to shove it in my mouth fast because I can feel my facade crumbling, and if I can't repair it soon I'll never be able to eat.
It's dark outside and most of the people around me are already sleeping, I try to sit comfortable and put my legs up so I can sleep but there's to little room and the people walking down the small aisle keeps disturbing me.

Somewhere in the end of the bad movie playing I guess I had some sleep cause when I open my eyes it is already bright outside and the fluffy dress of clouds is surprisingly white. We eat our breakfast and I start putting on some makeup. We're flying over Brazil now, the little I see is green, and it's a refreshing contrast to Swedens white and Europes grey.
Suddenly we're flying over Chile and next Santiago and we begin to land slowly and safely.

-End of part I -

Se que soñara con tu regreso

OMFG :S Why, whyyy haven't I written here?! Omg blog you've missed so much!
I have to eat soon so I don't have time to write it all down now, but here comes a sneak peek ;D One-and-a-half-month trip to Chile + Starting preeUni?!
Besitos <3